this year is about learning to find peace. Not to find a place where there is no noise…not a life with little trouble or hard work…but to learn how to be calm (and joyful) in my heart in the midst of noise, trouble, hard work, struggle and uncertainty.
I am one of those teachers who will take on a teacher evaluation assessment concretely linked to student achievement. I’m not afraid of accountability…I love to teach and want my students to succeed. I’m not confident that the FCAT is a valid assessment that I should be measured by at such a high percent.
Still… it is what it is…and I move forward. This is about getting my PGP first marks. I received a 9! A 9 out of 10! For hours and hours and hours of work…yes…and I am not exaggerating. The teachers I worked with and teamed with all received 9s or 10s!!! I am so excited for them…for all of us.
In this first year…this unsure year…this learning year where I sat down with the rubric and really unpicked it step by step using my experiences in England… we were successful. And yet I didn’t get a perfect 10! OH yes… the part of me that wants to be perfect…the one that tried to meet each standard…for a tiny moment gave out a sigh. But not for long.
Why? I don’t mind rigor…as long as it’s fair. I’m not perfect…so my marks should reflect that. I am strong…and my marks did reflect that. There is always room to improve…and my marks and the feedback I received shows me how. Does that mean I totally agree with this system. You know…it is not for everyone. And quite honestly…I cannot see this being EVERY year. But maybe I will feel different when it’s over.
I know it’s making me reflect.
I know it’s making me stay focused.
I know it is a crazy amount of work….especially because I am migrating in to a new educational system.
I am so thankful it’s not completely new…but new enough.
And I am sooo thankful for the team of teachers that surrounds me. Still, I wish politicians had PGPs! Seriously! I wish I could review their value added scores…how they improve the life and balance of their constituents. Can you imagine? 🙂 I think this PGP will have a good effect on me. But…I’m not sure we are using it in the right ways. My ultimate goal this year is to learn how to attain peace. I wonder how it will go.